IT'S A PANDAN LIFE ...!

* KPI = key performance indicator = a business metric to evaluate factors that are crucial to the success of an organization After weeks of long tedious meetings discussing the KPI of the department, I was suicidal. Truly, I was. During the last meeting we had two days ago, I simply tuned off. I also prayed to God that my boss would disappear and never come back. Within minutes, my mind started to wonder about the many things that I would like to do once the meeting is over, and I started scribbling… A colleague sitting a few seats next to me, passed a note: Z, you look so engrossed. You’re not taking the minutes, are you? I replied: Nope. Unsatisfied (for I don't know what reason), she passed me another note: Huh? Then why are you scribbling so profusely? What are you up to? I handed her the paper I used to scribble, which goes like this: Jif Softlan Plastik sampah Scouring brush Kitchen towel Tissue Toothbrush Toilet Duck Mineral water HL Milk Calamansi Bread Milo Nescafe She th...

Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you? ~ Fanny Brice The term cam-whoring has been coined as early as 2001 but I only learned of its existence last week, by accident. I was perplexed for a while but after putting two and two together, I figured cam-whoring means doing something sexually explicit in front of the camera for others to view and I wasn’t far from wrong. A quick google the next day confirmed this. And to my surprise, cam-whoring can actually carry different meanings: 1. The act of exposing oneself on the Net in exchange for goods. 2. The act of posting pictures or videos of oneself on the Internet to gain attention. 3. The act of taking pictures of oneself and/or with one’s friends excessively. Well, I guess the meaning of cam-whoring has evolved over time. I can relate to meaning No. 1. I mean, it goes well with the meaning of whore, although a whore doe...

Four thousand volumes of metaphysics will not teach us what the soul is. ~ Voltaire 37 things you should know about me: 1. I'm no longer a clothes horse (My wardrobe can't take it anymore). 2. I still love dressing up for the occassion. 3. I'm still a coffee drinker. 4. I'm still a loyal friend. 5. I still believe in love (I still haven't been lucky). 6. I try to go to the gym three times a week (Killer body, what killer body??) 7. I'm still afraid of the dark. 8. I still can't say no to people I care about. 9. I believe aestheticism is very subjective (After reading The Picture of Dorian Gray, that is). 10. I still love kids. 11. I still have very few friends, maybe added one or two in the past year, but my friends won't be my friends if they aren't reliable. 12. I still try not to judge people. 13. I'm still open minded. 14. I still love CSI Vegas (But Grissom, do you have to go?). 15. I still love traveling. 16. I still love Europe. 17. I...

Creative work is play. It is free speculation using materials of one's chosen form. ~ Stephen Nachmanovitch I am me Round, jagged and pink You are you Square, jagged and black Do we meet halfway? Or do we just holler from where we are and let our voices fade in time? * Suraya and I played this creative game during a long and tedious department meeting and this is the outcome. My words are italicized, Suraya's non-italicized.

Consistency is the last refuge of the unimaginative. ~ Oscar Wilde I'm active but passive I'm busy but lazy I'm ambitious but static I'm hot but cold I'm funny but cynical I'm happy but lonely I'm creative but simple I'm angry but patient I'm fed up but resilient I'm sane but cuckoo I'm focused but distracted I'm centered but fragmented.

Cincin ini tiada makna lagi. Maafkan aku kerana melemparnya ke lembah jauh. Bukan aku benci. Tetapi bila segala kata telah menjadi lain, aku pun harus menerima dengan tafsir dan laku yang lain. 1992

Sememangnya aku suka mengungkapkan cinta tapi jarang dengan kata-kata atau setiap masa kerana cinta yang diucapkan berulang kali akan hilang nikmatnya Sememangnya aku tidak suka berjanji pada bulan atau matahari sebagai saksi kerana tidak semua janji bisa ditepati kuasa Illahi mengatasi Sememangnya aku tidak suka bersumpah untuk sehidup semati kerana cinta bukannya aku tidak percaya hakikatnya kita hanya hamba yang pasrah demi Allah Mungkin aku tidak romantik tetapi aku kan realistik. 1992

A good book on your shelf is a friend that turns its back on you and remains a friend. ~ Anonymous Recently when I was at home, I had to look up a word in the dictionary. So, I quickly snatched one of the shabby dictionaries on my bookshelf. While I was putting it back on the bookshelf, I realized that I seldom pay attention to the bookshelf that I have in my study. Well, come to think of it, I rarely spend time in my study anyway. In fact, it has become more like a store room than a study. Realizing that the shabby dictionary really came in handy when I needed it, my eyes darted a glance at all the books that I have on the bookshelf, thinking that maybe, the rest of the books that I've neglected would also come in handy some day. Like the shabby dictionary, most of the books there are old, but I still keep them for the simple reason that I appreciate books and hate the thought of letting go of them. Some of the books are career-related; those that I had brought back from my offic...

(Dedicated to Suraya. My heart goes out to you...) Tidak pernah aku mengundang kesal setelah kau berikan sebuah cermin meminta aku melihat wajahku sendiri kemudian kau hempaskan berkecai. Seperti kaca-kaca itu aku tidak pernah menyatukan keretakan hati ini. 1992

Sekalipun aku tidak pernah pasti tentang perasaanmu namun keakraban itu cukup bermakna. Kita tidak perlu membina janji apalagi untuk saling mengharap bila tiba waktunya merah atau jingga warnanya kita terima saja. 1992 English Translation: A Note Though I've never been certain of your feelings this closeness means a lot. We don't have to build promises nor do we have to put up hopes When the time comes no matter what colour it transforms to red or orange we'll deal with it. 2008 * A buddy advised me not to translate the poem to English but I just had to try. The meaning is lost in translation,I have to agree.

Apa bisa kah disembuhkan luka yang berdarah dendam yang tak sudah sudah? 22.6.92

To be a good student takes as much wisdom as it does to be a good teacher ~ JJ Dewey Essay question (not less than 350 words): The advancement of technologies has brought many benefits to teenagers. As a teenager, choose a modern technological invention and discuss three ways how it benefits you. Provide relevant examples where necessary. Best Introductory Paragraph: ...If we compared to the stone age, I don't know how they survive their life without anything. We should be grateful because was born in this modern age with many great inventions around us. (I sure am grateful!) Best Body Paragraphs: The first benefits of this technology (handphone) is communication. This is because in old time we want to call a person that using a bird that still give worried to the people that send the message wether the message had received by the person or not. This is because there have many possibilities that might happen to the birds. (This guy is giving a voice to those birds. Smart alec! E...